Tuesday, July 12, 2011

I Want to Remember......

all her little sounds
 her eyes lighting up when she sees my face
the way her eyes crinkle at the corners when she smiles
the first time she realized she could kick and splash in the bathtub
and after her bath still kicking but no splash came
the frustrated cries from not being able to turn all the way over
the little hand repeatedly batting at the red butterfly on my shirt
her feet (right now) pushing against my desk as she sits on my lap
the loud sound she makes trying to sneeze again when there are no more sneezes 
 Zeke kissing her, over and over, sometimes way too much
 Kiersten running for the camera to capture these moments
Micah rocking her for hours, both of them quiet and so content
Nathan packing her into the carrier for a walk outside when she's fussy 
all of us together in our little living room as Tim reads the Bible to us

How to hold on to all the memories???  I forget so quickly.  But I want to remember.   I don't want to let these moments slip into nothingness.  Phoebe changes every day, so quickly.   But so do the rest of my children, just more subtly.  In only six days my first baby will be fifteen and truly the years have flown by.  I feel like I can't keep up.  But I want to.  I want to be present in every moment.

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Nights With My Baby

She's so beautiful snuggled in the crook of my arm, eyes heavy with sleep.  Her skin is as smooth and soft as silk and I can't get enough of her.  And I cherish these nights because I know they don't last forever and before long she'll have her own bed, her own pillow.  She may still need me in the night once in awhile, seems all my children still do from time to time, but it won't be every night like clockwork and I won't wake up with her intently looking at my face.  I love it when our eyes meet and she smiles her smile that lights up her whole face.  These are priceless moments, moments I'll carry with me forever.

Wednesday, April 27, 2011